This Christmas I’m not too sure what to expect. All I know is that everything is going to be different. A lot has happened over the year and a lot has changed. I honestly cannot believe that the year is almost over. I usually tell myself that once my birthday comes around  the year is almost over, but it didn’t feel that way this year.

This year I am 20, next year is the big 21. I feel like the older I get the less exciting Christmas becomes. When I was younger Christmas was a huge thing. I would get excited, write a long list, and decorate the tree early and bake cookies; the whole 9 yards. This year my list was extremely short, I didn’t decorate the tree and there will be no baking for me.

I used to wake up before the sun came up so that I could open my presents, but we always had to wait until my parents woke up so they could go downstairs first. This year I guarantee that I will be the last person to wake up. I’m in college and this break is essential so I need my sleep. I still wish that I was younger. Everything back then was so fun and carefree.

I feel like I’m getting old. There is no more excitement and I hate that. I love Christmas as a holiday, but my birthday took over the exciting department. I wonder if I’m the only one that feels this way. Do other people feel that getting older ceases all of the joy out of Christmas? Maybe I’ll surprise myself and see that I am still surprised. But as of now Christmas is for the younger folks and to me is another day besides the religious factor. 

I couldn’t think of a better title because accomplished is how I feel. I will be graduating next Tues. with my Associates in Fitness and Nutrition. I am very proud of myself and I have come a long way since High school. I never thought I would make it this far to be honest. I am going to prove myself wrong and go farther. 

I can’t wait until I finish school, I can’t wait to go on in life and work in a career that I love. I have so many plans for myself and so many ideas of what to do next. My mom wants me to do better than she has and I am going to make her proud. My mom is my motivation to keep pushing every day. Don’t get me wrong college is hard! 

It’s not really hard in a sense of classes but time wise. You really don’t get that much time in college. Most people don’t get to see their families because there is not enough time. College goes by extremely quick and RMU is an accelerated school as well. You just have to stay focused, and sometimes that’s not always the easiest thing to do. 

But I’m trying everyday even though I do make some mistakes. Even though I have made those silly mistakes, I learned from them and look where they have led me. I am so proud of myself and can’t wait for graduation. I’m excited for the day that I get my BA and then go on further than that.